Random thoughts...

It is funny how things go sometimes. You fall out with people and move on, but they seem to be stuck in the same position. I look at some of Matt's friends and they are in the exact same place as they were three years ago when Matt and I got married. Some of them still live at home with their parents, have no jobs, and look like they are going nowhere.
A friend of mine the other day told me a good saying and I have been thinking about it alot. It went, show me your friends and I will tell you who you are. It rings true in a matter of sense. I look at who I am with now and I am glad to say I have cut out much of the people who took in the friendship rather than gave as well. One in particular, I am sort of glad to see go. I look at who she surrounds herself with now and it makes me wonder why we ever became friends in the first place. Hmmm, maybe having Allie changed everything. Maybe that maternal instinct kicked in and showed me who people really are. It really amazes me all the things I missed over the years and now when I look back, man I looked like a fool. All the things that were lied about and things that were copied. Everything we did, this family had to do. The scary thing is they even went and bought not just the same car, but the same color and everything. Who does that? There is so much more, but I would need volumes to fill it all. I am ready to let the past lie and move on. Too bad Matt isn't. Sigh, he sees what I see, but feels that we should be fake towards them and make it all seem like everything is okay. Not my style at all. I am an honest up front person. Oh well, enough of my rant, since this is what it turned into....